lavender n roses poem
lavender n roses
not feelin like im supposed too
toaster next to this vase i see
placin little strands of lavender as my soul sings
great are you, Lord
i pray my life is a pleasing aroma
like this lavender I place in this clear vase
it’s you I seek, your beautiful face
you reassure me
i’m exactly where I’m supposed to be
even when all of me wants nothing to do with it
my days consist of thoughts that scurry across my brain
again & again
positive thinking won’t help it
i need a real heart change
a perspective shift
that will shift my focus on the mission at hand
lavender n roses
not feelin how I’m supposed too
what do i with all this pain i feel?
that i wish would just slip like a banana peel
i pour my milk, ice, & flax seed
into this blender in front of me
i break the banana that’s so ripe it’s fallin apart in my hand
i think of how i don’t really know what im doing
& how i’m about to fall apart trying to be obedient to you
i stand & i hum
in my quiet kitchen
i smell the lavender
and i know you’re close
i see the roses and i remember your robe
robes of righteousness
that wash me white as snow
all day I’ve felt heavy
yet right here with you i feel light all over again
some of these red petals fall to the floor
& i fall on my face
calling out Your Name
let your love be like a roar
like a fire in my soul
all consuming
caught up in my bones
let my senses be heightened
and I’ll go wherever you tell me to go
lavender n roses
you’re the one that keeps me goin
You sustain me
You pour into me
You give me all i need
my heart begins to soar
I suddenly realize
You’re the One I’m here for
here for you alone
no need to feel alone
because you’re the one who never goes
lavender n roses
Love rose
i’ve resolved
this problem i have can’t be solved
it’s in me i know it
this is sin in my bones
only covered by the sacred blood of my savior, whom i love
this poem reminds me of the book “the practice of the presence of God” by brother lawrence. it is a super short yet profound read.